Its not the matter of not caring, its the matter of not giving a crap.

Hey :) no pictures today.
Im so tired right now. At my cousin's house in Singapore :) Family has been talking abt me going to _____. Haha and i keep rethinking about my decision. It was a harder decision than expected haha Friends are praying for me so i got to do my best! :D I so wanna talk about wat i think right now but itll blow my cover! eesh! where are my darls? TT probably studying eh?

Which is another thing! I hardly did anything this week. I mean i did tons of papers but not much of studyin haha xD my sejarah is teruk la! Am getting better at Geo. Am too lazy to do Science Paper 2 :( geez!

Anyway, yesterday, i went out the whole day. First, got soya ice cream near an MRT station while my lil bro got his S$10 haircut (which is quite expensive if you convert it) Mom brought us to this weapon shop haha it has replicas of guns and swords from many movies. And omg it was such a ____ moment when i held the sword! i always wanted one xD! it made me feel so cooool! HAHA and powerful ;P! Too bad i didnt buy one. Malaysia's immigration would probably confiscate it.

Went to Reffles City after that. Bought a shirt from Marks and Spencers. Bought a size 10 in a-i -dont-know-wat-country-size. Mom told me to buy a 6 or an 8 but 10 was the smallest size they had for tht shirt so i had no choice :) Besides, it was only S$29 heh Bought candy for Foo Khiew and Kar Kiat =) (Their birthday was on the 26th and 28th respectively)

While walking, i saw this fantastic looking flats :D they were the best looking flats EVER! it was like a-must-have-thing buut it was S$99 so it wasnt an option! GAH! i really wanted those! TT

I wonder how everyone is doing back in M'sia. I know how Michelle is :P but not the others mmhmm.

Ahh well i gtg. Kh awaits :D
Cao!

Those wings.. lend them to me as well.

Hey just came back from Plaza Singapura (had dinner at Cartel the Cafe' [the ribs were fantastic and it wasnt even expensive!]) and ate durian while watching Marley and Me :) mmhmm! Today i was pretty weak. Haha i haven't been getting enough food into my stomach. Havent been having the appetite lately. Mom told me my face shrunk! haha xD Its like eating is becoming a burden. Oh well heh managed to study today :D did 2 p.y.papers for KH and Geo and 1 for mathematics. I plan to continue later on. Its not much but atleast i did something :)

Sheng Han has gotten his new Wii Zapper (its a gun) now he can enjoy playing Resident Evil: Umbrella Chronicles. Mom was being very generous xD I was looking out the window today and wondered will it be like this if i stay here? Can i actually adapt to a place like this? hahah just keeping an open mind :D

Im getting pretty tired :) Here are some pictures from yesterday heh.

Im out,

nights!

Being rejected and denying the person are the things that are wrong.

Hey :) Just got out of the shower and got ready for singapore. Ive been putting pictures nowadays since its easier with the webcam here :D So ill take a picture before starting a post :) And yes thats how i look right now heh I still have a few pictures i took with my sis yesterday (was suppose to blog yesterday but tak jadi [was watching Advent Children!] )

Yesterday was one of the most productive-est days ever. I manage to study 5 subjects in one day. It was suppose to be 6 but i was interrupted haha. I realise i can be really mean. Whenever im angry, im too straightforward. Gotta stop that! but i had a reason yesterday and i was holding back. Geez expect so much from one person but you just gotta do it yourself. Dissapointment, much? Oh damn its 12:24. Gtg. Work starts at 12:30 :) heh

Yo, Foursome! , ill talk to ya ladies on Tuesday. Wish me luck for ____! :D heh

I can feel your gravitational pull! *wink*

Its been a long time since i camwhored :) so brace yourselves haha

Im leaving for S'pore on Thursday. Gonna study there i guess :D Yoke Shan and i just finished creating our timetable. It looks damn effective! LETS GO SHAN! ;D! haha

Ive been getting lazier and its not the right time at all so i better buck up heh 

Fortunately, im fully recovered. I have no problems at all so life is going perfectly well actually :) 

Yoke Shan wants me to create a Facebook acc. Honestly, i dont know how to use FB and im too lazy to learn. One more thing, its another distraction. So maybe, after PMR? or trials? haha 

Anyway, gtg, Shaun's probably waiting for my part on Pn Fazilah's work. Not like he's done xD

Cant keep people waiting, can i?

so cao!

Swei + Sick = Double Kill!

It was a horrible weekend!!
I got the shivers on Saturday and it just went on till Sunday.
I slept the whole day on Sunday. Without the aircond, windows opened, never ending headache and lost of appetite. I just hated it. I couldnt concentrate on anything. Took me 3 hours to finish my lunch and also for dinner, i ate a handful of rice, 3 slices of sashimi and half a miso soup. I was also panicking cause i have trials and also ________(only some knows) Thank god im feeling a whole lot better now. And also thank god it wasnt H1N1. That'll be worst. Its just the wrong time la.

Ahh well, right now im still having a headache but atleast i got my appetite back :D and now i can study! haha i need to eat my brunch first heh x)

Listen to this :) Im so jealous of their voice!
Trust me its worth watching :D You dont have to watch the video, just listen to it.
Scarborough Fair sung by youtube's only international online choir, Stella Voci! The AMV was made by Daydreamgirl, who is also a member of the 9 member choir.


FInal Fantasy 13 T.T!
Its just amazing how creative they are :D Ive only fell in love with Final Fantasy this year so i was kinda outdated.
The one that attracted me was Final Fantasy Versus 13. There is also Final Fantasy XIII and Final Fantasy Agito XIII.

I'm not feeling well.. .___.

Fight the bad feeling.

eyyhoo!! :D!

Today was a surprisingly good day haha! :D Not wat i expected. Rho did 4 periods of sewing non-stop heh I was very very impatient. I think Pn. Lim saw it xD Oh well the machine was ____. heh Atleast i ALMOST finished up my kuilting I was wearing my mask the whole day cause its getting quite comfortable and i find it cool ;)

After school, Nina gave me a present from Australia! and OMG! it was freeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaking _________! i cant find a word for it xD I was expecting trinklets but it was a brown bag and a bookmark :D Thank you, dear! loves loves! You're soo thoughtful =)

May Yin, Natalie, Jo and i went to Subway ;D Been a long time since i went out heh I was suppose to go out with Shaun today but since extra class was cancelled, we didnt see the point. Nvm nvm next time ;)! After tapauing, May Yin and i went back first as my dear Natalie wanted to meet up with *enter name here* HAHAHA! May and i talked on the way heh. Babe, thanks! Reached school, ate omg it was delicious. Jo bought 2 large drinks haha xD as he knows i would probably steal his drink (which i did) he bought large lol! Thanks for thinking about how thristy i would be hahahaha! Nick and Wil came after tht. Talked to Wil after a looooong time haha xD Atleast now we can actually start a convo! Hopefully, it stays. 

So yup, my day was nice :) Went back after tht. Straight to bed haha It was like a Final Fantasy dream haha ;D I think im still hooked to the graphics. It just so beautiful la! Joo Jin told me there is a special edition 3 epi of FFVII. Until he buys it and lends it to me, i have to wait TT. Or maybe this time ill buy it and lend it to him heh We'll see :) 

I wanna eat popcorn. People were talking abt watching a movie while i stay at home safe and sound haha I mean im not fully complaining, i like home :) its peaceful. And in here, i get to cook! haha

I better hit the books now.

cao!

I fell in love with two guys : 

LEE MIN HO! (Actor)

IS: What do you consider the most when looking at women?

Lee Min Ho: Her overall style and feeling is most important. Even if she is not beautiful, my heart can be pulled by a strong feeling that comes to me.

IS: Name a characteristic that you’re jealous of from each F4 member.

Lee Min Ho : Kim Beom’s small face, Kim Joon hyung’s big eyes, and Kim Hyun Joong’s white (pale) face. Still, overall, I’m the most……..

KIM HYUNG JOON (Singer)

I'm not hungry but i want to eat.

*while watching boys before flowers*

*looking at them eating ramen*
swei: You want maggi mee?
swen: yeaa..
swei: tom yam or asam laksa?
swen: anything.
swei: *while walking out the door* we're pigs, jie!
swen: haha yea i know.

Its like a stoner moment but my sis and i felt like eating maggi mee after seeing them eating ramen xD

Just finished eating Goober : PeanutButter&Jelly from the jar (not the whole things laa!) haha Normally, you see depressed people eating it in the movies but im happy and ive been eating non-stop :) and i have no regrets there :D!
I didnt study much yesterday. Meaning.. it has to be hardcore today haha xD Been watching 24 (: got the adrenaline pumping heh
Learnt scales yesterday. Quite happy with my piano work heh i aint slacking no more!
Either than that life has been *no comment*
Sis and i are craving cake! fufu gonna go secret recipe :)
caocao!

Hawt!

Katak di bawah tempurung.

Eyhoo! :D
ive not been updating on my life lately eh? haha nothing much has happened. School closed down for a week. Its quite a good call for me cause i do more productive work at home heh :)
I dont feel like leaving home. It aint boring at all x)
I enjoy sleeping on my bed while watching boys before flowers, studying wtv i feel like studying, eating banana, chocolate and cornflakes on bread, talking on the phone whenever im free, drinking Starbucks, exercising and reading manga yeaap thats basically it ;)
Was asked to go for a few outings. Not sure which to go to and whether i want to go or allowed to go.
Following my sis to her uni :) going to help out with the cheerleading heh
i gotogo :)

Boys before flowers.

Weren't times like this when you needed Geum Jan Di more?
And after I bring her back. What am I supposed to do? Now I cant promise her anything. That I'll make her laugh, "I'll make you happy so believe only in me" My confidence to say such things has disappeared. Being the child of that kind of person. Being a member of that kind of family. If I even hate it this much, then how do you think she'll feel? During that time, given what she went through, she probably detested it.
It's Geum Jan Di so it could be different.
Thats even more reason why I cant. Because its the woman i love. Thats why i cant even more now.
-Boys before flowers.

Closed?

we may no longer get to see each other after this year.

School closed down for a week!
Omg! im not relief at all (okay, maybe a lil)
Its cool we can get our work from the net but its not the same as in class xD
I didnt get to see some of my classmates since last friday and also my best friends :(
I pity 3 Lambda and Alpha.. having to stay at home for 2 weeks is torture.
Its okay we'll make plans, kay? heh
Plan to watch a movie tomorrow :D
I gtg :)

Lucky No. 8.

8/31 students came today.
Bummer huh?
But..
It was FUN! HAHAHA XD
We only studied Geo, Science and English heh
Played charades and games from 'whose line is it anyway?'
It was nice and peaceful though abit boring heh
If im not mistaken only 3 people are coming tomorrow :)
Im gonna bring food : D!
Maybe my iPod too heh
Thanks for the day, Yunfern, Lilynn, Han-Li, Jade, Sam, Chia Seng and Kar Kiat.

It is not enough.

i was wondering..
have i been doing my best?
has stress, nervousness and fear build a wall together to block me from success?
have i been letting it build up without me realizing it.
No, i have not and i will not let that wall be finished. I have tried so many things this year and i just have to keep trying. My hard work will pay off one day. Until then, i have no room for giving up. I've already lacked this far and i should stop now. If not, others will just keep pestering me on the things i have not been doing when i know wat i should be doing. Im being lazy ignoring the things that await me. I've grown stronger mentally and physically. Once in awhile i wanna rest but that time isnt now. I look forward to every nights' 8 hours sleep. Resting between my boster pillows and huge teddy bear. Sleeping almost instantly knowing theres a tomorrow. What im doing wrong is not living my day to its fullest. How sure am i theres a tomorrow? Its scary, isnt it? looking forward to something that may never come. So all i have to do is do wat i can right now. No more lacking. Im promising this to myself. i tend to keep that promise.

Swei.

Wish i could grant, you your first kiss.

i love you but im not in love with you.

Hey as you guys know, 3 Lambda and 3 Alpha have to quarantine themselves for 7 days. But most of the form 3's arent going to school, most of them are my classmates haha
Shao Wei isnt either cause i have the symptoms. Well just one : flu (my sore throat is gone :) ). I was sick before the school was positive for H1N1 so hopefully im safe :)
Nina, have a safe trip :) Be careful aight? take care of youself too. Australia has more H1N1 cases compared to Malaysia.
Happy Advance Birthday : D
Farah and Nat, enjoy getting your homework from the net and take care of youselves, alright?
Bye peeps.