Tears, my best friend.

When you see someone crying and you hug them knowing that they are stronger than they will ever be after this incident. 

You don't cry. 

You don't cry because you have cried enough. 

You have been affected by everything, 

you have been torn, 

you have been hacked by reality, 

you have been betrayed, 

you have been hurt, 

you have been loved, 

you have been happy, 

you have faced the impossible, 

you have faced what you thought was possible to find out it was impossible, 

you have lived. 

You don't cry because there is nothing new.

 Everything is on repeat. 

You see others cry and tell yourself "I know how that feels" and you walk away. 

You can't help them.

 The tears will do the job. 

Tears are but a medium that drags all sorrow away. 

You go back to reality, 

you're hugging someone,

 that someone wonders why you don't cry anymore. 

He/She realises that you've been through enough to know that everything is going to be alright and if it isn't, 

you will get through it eventually. 

You, who was the one who cried all the time in the past became the one to support others in the future. 

You wanted this. 

You foresaw this.

 You knew what would come in the long run. 

And when your emotion starts to rain again,

 you will know that it will be worth it because crying isn't a sign of weakness,

 it is a sign of the body growing and allowing the medium that carries your emotion to be removed from the body.

 Until then, you support till you need to be supported once again.

Two years.

It's been two years since I blogged.
A lot has happened but a story won't be told properly all at once.

A new start! ( What's new? )

Hey there guys!

So recently it has occurred to me that my english is really.. really terrible. Okay, if you were to compare me with a normal asian kid, perhaps not. However, small grammatical mistakes and even making full sentences seem hard for me now. I'm not exaggerating, I really am that bad so I thought what better way to improve my writing but by writing more posts? Okay, this isn't the only reason why I'm starting to blog again. I've been pretty insecure and emotional lately. I got to admit I've always been this kind of person and I express myself the best by writing so why not write? At first, I wanted to start another blog since there are people who know and read this blog but I shouldn't be hiding ( It's also troublesome creating another blog ) what I feel and who I am ( Yeah, I know crap you hear nowadays)

So cheers to a new start :D I took down my Bloghop, Rants & Friendster links cause no one around me blogs now and what's a start without changes?

So here it goes!
From now on, random posts about random things :)
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Unbelievable it is :)

Eyhoo!

Yes, it has been a long time. I think this is my 238979382 time saying that. I always found it cool how you could type a bunch of numbers just to exaggerate it. My mom recently made a website of her own and she constantly checks her stats and I was thinking "Hey, why now check yours?" & unbelievably enough, I got 2,803 views since I started and I'm thrilled! I mean it's not a whole lot compared to those who have a thousand, million a day but I'm glad I have readers :')
According to my stats, I have already had 889 Singaporean viewers, 671 Malaysians & 335 Americans! I hope I'm reading this correctly but if I'm not, don't tell me! I'll live in denial for awhile!

Thank you so much for visiting my blog. Even if it was by accident and my blog annoyed for some reason cause Google didn't take you to where you wanted to be but hey, still, thank you :)

Well, IGCSE is starting soon. I'm gonna hit the books now cause tonight, feels like a late night. I don't wanna waste any more time. Just a month more of exams and we're finished so I'm gonna do my very best while I can! That might include skipping school but hey, that'll be my secret :3



Until then, see you! I'll prolly blog more cause of exams ;)
Needa let go of my stress somewhere!

Nap Dream (:

Another dream about superpowers :) X-menish this time. These are the kind of dreams I want to have everyday.

Here's how it went..

Mystique captured a young girl and I. She gave the young girl an injection and I was forced to inject myself too. After that we went out of the car for some reason and she left us there. Suddenly, hungry looking mutant started chasing us from across the road and from the sky. The young girl and I knew we were going to die so we just jumped into the jungle. After running for a while, our hearts beating so hard as we were nearing our deaths, we suddenly flew. Yes, we got wings. You don't know how ecstatic we were. Not only did we have wings and we could fly, we could avoid the mutants on land but there were still two mutants following us. Twin mutants, green & pink. I grabbed the young girl and swung her to the mutants, she tried to kick them but the green mutant just grabbed her whole body so I snatched her back and thought of another plan.

Poof. Suddenly, we were walking in the jungle, walking behind them & they thought of us as guests. There was this guy who I felt was always there. I knew him, I think I was in love with him in this dream.

Because of the injection, the young girl and I had changed our powers. Initially, I had a different power, I could control stuff or something like that. It was vague to me but I knew I had a different power and so did she. My body wasn't used to the injection and I felt weak, really weak. While everyone was having a feast, I was walking to the table and suddenly, I fell.. I couldn't walk anymore. That guy rushed over to me. As he did that someone shouted "SIR?!" He took me to the village doctor. At least that's what I think he did as I woke up with a woman chanting gibberish. I felt really dizzy.

Here comes the nonsensical part. Because of the injection and the doctor trying to heal me.. it made me hallucinate. You see the village had a lot of cockroaches. When I saw a cockroach on the wall, it jumped on me but I found out that was me hallucinating, it was actually still on the wall. The guy was quite worried but in the end, I didn't want people thinking I was crazy so I dealt with my hallucination. It got all better. Even though I was bummed out, I lost my original powers. I wanted to try my new ones so there was this ritual or festival actually that was mandatory for the guys. They had to collect as many cockroaches as they can. They could form a team whether it included girls or not, didn't matter. The villagers were all mutants so they had different powers. I, on the other hand, didn't wanna take part in this festival at all so I decided to fly around the jungle.

Poof. I was back at home in Malaysia but the festival was still on. My family was part of it too, everyone I knew was. My brother and his friends were all in their cars getting ready to head out to the jungle. May yin was in this dream too. Not only her, my family, extended family, Daniel & Vincent as well HAHA. Anyway, I showed Daniel & Vincent my new powers and they were confused cause they knew I had another type of power. I asked May Yin if she wanted to have a view of the jungle from the sky and she obviously agreed.

Poof. Change of scene. AGAIN. I was carrying Cammyn to our family table to eat as the youngies & oldies sat there while waiting for the guys of the house to finish the festival. I put Cammyn on a chair and saw this big mosquito sucking something on our vegetable. I flicked it away but it still came back. I got fed up and squashed it.

I woke up.
I was really looking forward to taking May Yin to the jungle as I really wanted to fly badly.

My imagination is wild.


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Happy Father's Day to my one and only dad (:

Dear daddy,

I bet you weren't expecting this ;) Ever since I opened my eyes to this world, you've taken great care of me until now, of all of us for that fact. I know while growing up, I've disappointed you and mummy many times & I'm really sorry about that. I'm sure I'll learn from my mistakes sooner or later. Being the only child who was given the chance to study overseas, you & mummy have used a lot of money on me. Just know, I AM very very grateful, grateful for what you've been doing for me all this while. I promise to grow up to be the mature woman you and mummy have planned for me to become. Yes, there will be a few bumps up ahead but what is life without a few distractions? It's how I'll handle those distractions that will make me stronger. I know you will be there supporting me all the way while guiding me to the right path.

I've been a happy girl since 1994 (:
Thank you so much. I'm lucky to have a father such as yourself. I couldn't & wouldn't ask for another. I would never replace this family :')
Love you, daddy!

Teaching me how to balance myself!
Cutting my food for me :')

Ah Kong & Ah Ma who brought you up to the man you are today!

From your little princess,

Ps: This blogpost does not summarise all my love but just 1/91924798365987098e09709 part of it :'D

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Alien Eye & Hotel Pen.

This is going to be a short post.
Because of my itchy hands, I rubbed my eyes and BOOOOM!
ALIEN EYEEE.

It freaked me out at first then I thought about it. Alien eye .. alien .. supernatural .. superpowers .. telekinesis .. COOOOL! HAHAHAH :3 X-men, justice league + any type of super hero show fan here. Don't judge me :)

&&

Sitting down, looking at my books with my messy hair. I took my pen and tied a bun with it.
BOOOOM!

I guess I did learn something from just sitting down.

Credits to May Yin's camera for the Pen pics :)
She left her camera in my bag and I've been camwhoring ever since!
Lookie!

Other pics are in my camwhore album (:
I'mma leave & start on my Father's Day post!

Caos!