Confessions of a BrokenHeart.

Im swei. Im a bad gurlfren. I merajuk :) thats why my boyfriends broke up with me.. i annoy them. No im not scared to say this. Why? cause i dont expect to have another guy in my life.. i was played 2 times.. i was heartbroken i made 4 mistakes but when it came to the last one i thought i actually did something right but i ended up in the same path. I did try to change.. but i was scared.. paranoid.. well if u knw wat has happen this pass few momnths than ull know why. The worst thing is i actually thought he understood.. i know he tried to but i guess he held on loong enough and now time time to let go. I did almost everything to get him back but he doesnt want me nymore. My friends kept me going on. Love them soo much! but now.. not many people are telling me nything. I dont even know whether im a good friend anymore. I stop expressing everything cause i wanted to be strong so i just give advices to my friends. But its naive to not express ur feelings. If its all bottled up inside.. Whats the use of that? Im not ready to say anything yet but i will one day. But right now i gotta stay strong for my friends :) might sound abit cocky but i rather solve theirs than mine.. I like seeing other people happy. I dont come first in my life. If u think im lack of attention. That doesnt really matter to me.. the smallest thing can make me happy. I dont need anything big like other people. You can give me a tiny chocolate and ill smile.