i was wondering..
have i been doing my best?
has stress, nervousness and fear build a wall together to block me from success?
have i been letting it build up without me realizing it.
No, i have not and i will not let that wall be finished. I have tried so many things this year and i just have to keep trying. My hard work will pay off one day. Until then, i have no room for giving up. I've already lacked this far and i should stop now. If not, others will just keep pestering me on the things i have not been doing when i know wat i should be doing. Im being lazy ignoring the things that await me. I've grown stronger mentally and physically. Once in awhile i wanna rest but that time isnt now. I look forward to every nights' 8 hours sleep. Resting between my boster pillows and huge teddy bear. Sleeping almost instantly knowing theres a tomorrow. What im doing wrong is not living my day to its fullest. How sure am i theres a tomorrow? Its scary, isnt it? looking forward to something that may never come. So all i have to do is do wat i can right now. No more lacking. Im promising this to myself. i tend to keep that promise.
Swei.